It isn't easy to find consistent motivation. Some days are harder than others and some days are effortless; sometimes you understand the pattern only for it to change. But even on the hard days, it's worth it to have checked in.
You hesitate to cut yourself a break. It isn't easy and good things often aren't, so we try to cement a habit. But even when we can only think in goals, it's worth it to be dreaming.
There are gates in the mind and some aren't locked. A small push can reveal it opens easily, that you are already heading out. Preoccupations are a confirmation of intention, a chance to ask why and decide what you are looking for today.